long time since here

I am thinking of possibly making a new blog that can end up as a book. But I should probably actually post here once in a blue moon. I hadn't been to twitter since May and it has been long here, not since March!'

BIG NO To X Factor

Well, Libby and I did NOT try out for X Factor though we DID read their release form that basically would have made us their unpaid slave labor if we had been stupid enough to sign it. It also would have made them the owner of any original songs one were to preform on the show --- without any money. Talk about corporate greed! But then why is this no surprise for a show on Fox? A show owned by Brits on tv station owned by an Aussie to screw over American artistic talent?

It never fail to amaze me ( though why should it because we are talking about corporations who are EVIL as satanically evil ) the outrageous GALL and GREED of these large corporations. It is not enough that these multi-millionaires and billionaires are not satisfied with the millions they rake in from advertising on any given night. They also have to stiff the artistic talent that they are supposedly going to "help" become discovered.

Ok, so I AM the great unknown super star with her 10,000 plus songs ( not to mention my other writings, fashion designs etc ) that no one knows about. But no one will know me as a putout ( and plenty have gone the way of the casting couch ) or the sellout when it comes to what I create or getting my foot in the door that has never been opened for me, not in over 25 years.

Maybe I don't have fortune and fame but I DO HAVE self-respect and integrity . And somehow I don't think that I have ended up with the short end of the stick. But I don't know if I would say that about the poor schmucks who waited in line for hours in the rain to end up paying for wayyyyy over priced food and drink, end up being treated lower than chihuahua crap and then see great singers passed over while crummy delusionals were passed through to make for so-called "good" television.

I Got You, Dawg

I GOT A DAWG!!!! I cannot believe that I have bought myself a little chihuahua. His name is Sontheimer Angel Rattino, known as Sonny. He is soooooo cute ( gush gush ). He turns 3 months old on March 22. It has been over 50 years since I had a dog. It is so strange to hold a furry creature and not have him PURR. He has golden tan fur and little white angel like "wings" below his shoulder blades. And he is a love. :-)

Senior Bullies

A friend of mine moved out today. She had been evicted. While it is true that she could be abrasive she had a good heart. She was also disabled, about a year younger than me. I now have a little garden thanks to her help and encouragement. It seems that other people have been helped by her also. She did laundry for one person, helped others with their gardens ( as well as me ). If I had a surplus of something I could give it to her and know that others would receive it. So this morning she hoped on a bus, left most of her possessions behind, and took off for the great unknown. She has my address and phone number and a self stamped envelope to let me know how she is doing when she gets to where she is going. And why did she get evicted? Because of a nasty neighbor. I only heard this neighbor once banging on my friend's wall in the middle of the day. My friend looked as if she was going to jump out of her skin and said that this person did this to her all of the time.

The person in question was a little old lady in her 80s. Now there seems to be a belief that if you are "old" ( 80s and beyond ) that you can not be a nasty person. When did someone who has been and done evil all of their life suddenly turned into a nice person? In my case I was hit by a car at the age of 36 by a woman in her 80s. The accident had been preventable. I am now 62 and the injuries I got from that accident never went away. The woman would have been a hit and run except other people in cars flagged her down. As it was, she lied about me in a deposition. People do not want to believe that someone who has lived so long can be evil or mean.

Today, after my friend had moved out, I met the nasty woman who had hounded her, a senior bully. I went to collect my mail and a person matching her description was there. As I went to walk away she blocked my way so that I brushed against her ( and not on purpose for my part ). She muted something and gave me a nasty look and I said "I'm sorry" and walked past. But I could see the meanness in her. And now I know who she is. She was talking to someone else at the mailbox. I do not know this person. Maybe she knows I am the person who helped her next door neighbor. I will ignore her and she will probably ignore me ( I assume ). But if she decides to say anything about me to anyone that is a lie then she had better watch her step. I no longer suffer fools gladly and that does not matter how old they are.

Ponderosa Lemonade and Scheherazade

A few days ago I went to the Indio Date Festival to watch ostriches race ( an ostrich chariot race is very, very funny ). I wore a tshirt I have made called "Scheherazade of Song" and 10,001 songs and counting. It mentioned on the tshirt that I had used songwriting to help me when I have a problem with clinical depression. Of course it is shameless self-promotion but that is ok. It also is something that I hope can help someone if they have depression and maybe finding what gives them joy will help them through it. I need to give it a quick wash and then maybe wear it out when I go shopping.

I was talking with my girlfriend Bridge and mentioned if I were to write my autobiography that I would call it "Ponderosa Lemonade." One of my favorite phrases is the Pollyanna one of "When life hands you a lemon make lemonade."I explained to Bridge that Ponderosa lemons were the size of a big grapefruit. My mom has a Ponderosa lemon tree in her backyard. And the lemons life has given me have certainly been Ponderosa ones! I mentioned how the accident in 85 thant injured me had been a big lemon but that the lemonade made from it had been the 10,000 some odds songs that were written and my move to Hollywood. A lemon there was living there for almost 18 years and not becoming rich and famous and remaining poor and obscure. BUT the lemonade was that I was/am so blessed with having met my dear friends Betty Hier ( RIP ), my wonderful friends Bridge and so many others as well. So things happen for reasons.

crabby day

I woke up with itises and spasms making me crabby and depressed. March will be a month of change for my friend Susan and my friend Angie. Susan is moving because of a nasty neighbor. do not let someone tell you that because a person is old that they are suddenly a "good" person. Not true! All children are angels, are teens are brats and little devils and all seniors are good. NOPE! I can remember from my own childhood when there was some kid who would make your skin crawl, the kind who would torture animals and the like. You could feel the evil. and I was injured by a woman in her 80s who would have been a hit and run if other cars had not flagged her down and told her she had injured a woman ( then 36 ) on a bicycle. She then proceeded to lie in her deposition about me. The woman harassing Susan is in her 80s and as nasty as can be.

So here I was today in a crabby mood and had to try and explain to my neighbor that I am just crabby today. I am trying to help her with her move and I know it is hard on her. She is about a year younger than me, maybe less. and she has ms and cancer and is a cancer survivor ( had two breasts removed ) as well. So how do you console someone who is going through stress when you are feeling crabby? Well, Lord, I TRY.

Also, called one of my favorite buds, my dear dear friend, Bridge and if I get lucky she might be coming to see me this weekend with another dear friend, Jeff. So crabby but feeling good as well.

Skillet - Monster (Video)

Warrior Soul - The Losers

Falconer - The Past Still Lives On

Falconer - Mindtraveller

Happy birthday Libby and Coachella/Stagecoach

Today my younger sister turned 29 again. She is the same age as me . So happy happy birthday Libby hot mama and many many more. Now about those festivals. Coachella is in April and is a mile or so from my house ( everyone is coming to see me; ok, maybe not ). Duran Duran, Kings of Leon, Black Keys, Kanye West, the Strokes, a bunch of other people. Now me, I would probably feel more at home at Rocklahoma. Or with a Finnish metal band lineup festival. LETMESEE: Indio Finnish Gothic Metal Festival. That would work for me...

Then there is the Stagecoach Festival which is for two days rather than three is 100 bucks less. And the line up there is pretty good: Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, Carrie Underwood and more importantly, Wanda Jackson and Loretta Lynn who truly are legends. Might actually break down and go to that one! :-) We'll see...

Finland ROCKS!!!!!

I posted some videos on my blog via youtube from just two bands in Finland. what is going on in Finland anyway? Weird..... Some amazing bands. There is Nightwish with their melodically infectious Amaranth and The Islander. There is Entwine with their haunting Refill My Soul ( and others ) and the rather unknown but delightfully psychedelic 60s sound with a lead singer ( Henry lee Roots ) that bring to mind both the appearance and the sound vocally and the late Jim Morrison.

So what is it about Finland?

Maybe I should volunteer to work for Santa's workshops if he sends me home with some Finnish rock and roll CDs... :-)

Spiha - Planet Horse

SPIHA -neversleep

Spiha - If i ever let you go

Entwine-Refill My Soul

Oh BOO HOO HOO

Pass the barf bag please!!!!!! While the city of Tucson mourns the narcissist from Wahilla has decided that SHE is the victim in this tragedy. And there are those who support her whiny little rant. Ok, her is the deal, Scare-ah ( she IS scary ) --- this is NOT about YOU. I realize that you had thought that having someone ghost a book for you and then having a reality trash tv show would make you a "star" ( since it was more profitable than actually serving a job you had been voted into ) you now seem to have a problem with those who criticize you ( and justifiably so ). GET OVER YOURSELF. THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU. Six people died in Tucson and 13 others were wounded. ONE of those wounded people was a Jewish Congresswoman who took you to task when you put up a map with crosshair targets that included your district. You incite your followers to violence and then you turn around and go boohoohoo when something like this happens. They are persecuting YOU. YOU are the injured party. Say what? You WERE NOT THE INJURED PARTY! Those on the right are gonna rant about the liberals blah blah blah big barf bag needed to see their stupid rants. EGAD. It is so obviously that these people have been watching Faux News WAYYYYYYY too long! I formerly had a neighbor who watched Faux News obsessively. That is what these Faux junkies are like. They are completely brainwashed. And yet those on Faux News have ADMITTED they are NOT news, they are "entertainment." That is their way of not being held accountable for their LIES AND PROPAGANDA.

Scare-ah JUST SHUT UP. Your untalented daughter could not dance and you tried to make that into a political issue of people "hating you." Your entire family and you just need to GO AWAY. You are paranoid if you think anyone cares about your opinion on this issue. Because we don't. You are an insult to intelligent people and you are unspeakably annoying... As far as this issue is concerned, if YOU had had a brain or common decency you would have posted an apology concerning the crosshairs thing. And going on the defensive was a really, really dumb thing to do.

As far as the blood libel thing --- you so need to apologize for saying that. You need to apologize to the Jews. You also gave a bad name to Christians concerning that. I know the history of the Christian church and it was the Catholic church that used that. True Christians at the time were referred to as heretics and were also slaughtered and had their faith lied about and vilified. You need to apologize to the people who lost loved ones or who were injured. And you know what? You need to apologize for all of the liberals and moderates whom you have offended with your vile accusations about us. Because it is not about YOU. And yes, your stupid crosshair thing that you had up, while maybe not responsible for the shooting in Tucson, it fed the fire that led to it. Shame shame shame on you!